“My judgement turned into more positive thoughts”
“I got to love my body over the last years more and more and feel, most of the time, happy with my body. A few years ago, I would have never been able to let a stranger or even a friend or lover shoot me in such a vulnerable way. But at this time, it felt right. The shoot itself was already a step for me in my process.
I am not sure if I was very nervous, I guess I just was not sure how I would feel, and what to expect exactly from the day itself or how I would respond. Taking my clothes of was the ‘scariest’ part, as that is the moment the shoot really starts. It felt as a little threshold I had to pass.
I felt very safe and at ease with Annelies. Having the shoot at my place with my own playlist as background music worked comforting. However, during the shoot I felt a bit quiet and uninspired when it came to poses. I guess some sort of shyness came over me.
When I saw the pictures for the first time, I noticed I started judging myself right away. Too skinny, no curves, strange form, etc. But honestly, I am happy, because I did it and after a few looks I can see the beauty as well, my judgement turned into more positive and kinder thoughts towards myself. I guess it also depends on my overall mood. And just to get used to see yourself naked on photos I feel empowered and confident for having done this and doing this.
If you feel comfortable being naked in front of the camera or are interested to have the experience, I believe it to be a very strong tool to love yourself more. To see yourself through the eyes of someone else and to just be ok with who you are. It’s empowering and it really is a gift to yourself”